Cat- The High School Journal
Aug. 31st, 2005
01:10 pm - Well, this is good-bye
My new lj account is "chasing_catie" so update accordingly.
Stay tuned for the new series "Catie's LJ- The College Years".
12:26 pm - I think it's about time.
Okay, so I'm going to get a new lj. This one's going to stand, but I think that since I'm starting college, the highschool chapter of my life is over, and therefore, much like a book, this journal should end too.
Friends stay the same...I'll be posting a link to my new LJ quite soon.
So today I stood outside in the pouring drizzle and said a few last good-byes. It's started I guess, it's about time.
I haven't been sleeping at all lately, going to bed at this time would be going to bed early for me. I keep thinking about this summer, I mean, it's been the worst on record. I feel hollowed out by all that's happened, and lately I've been going through life an empty shell. This summer made me an empty shell that doesn't want to feel anymore, because I'll just feel pain. Does this sound overly dramatic? I feel like I'm being such...
It's hard when you put everything into a person, and then find out that all the times he looked you in the eye and said "I love you", he didn't mean it. How do I know this? He told me. I hate it. I hate always picking at this scab, I don't love him anymore, fuck, I'm out of here in three days. But I just wanted to know if it was real or not, fuck, after all of this, after all the weird passive agressive rejections I've had to deal with all summer, I just wanted to know that I was loved.
Well, I wasn't. I wasn't loved, and that hurts. Two months ago things were fine, things were normal, and now I'm crossing off the days on my panda calendar to visually see the days go by.
On the bright side, I started a screenplay, it's everything that has bothered me in the past four years set to a strange indie plot. Good times.
I just feel lonely, I feel lonely in a crowd and I don't know why. I feel damaged, and very very hollow.
I guess I should sleep.
Aug. 29th, 2005
01:02 am - .....
BreatheInThAir: yo, dont get offended by this shit, but if you like wanna get laid before you head off to school, im totally up for it man
there are no words.
12:32 am - ...someone save me???
BreatheInThAir: i got pretty drunk earlier
BreatheInThAir: did i happen to say anything
BreatheInThAir: of any sort of
Sang the blues6: nah, just something about me being pretty and you wanted to talk to me
BreatheInThAir: ::sigh:: its true, i saw you and i was like, wow, but man i feel like a total creep now
Sang the blues6: nah, it's okay! it made me smile
BreatheInThAir: im glad
Sang the blues6: i was feeling down before :-D
BreatheInThAir: well thats good to know i turned that frown upside down
BreatheInThAir: man, i wanna hang out with you a little before you head off to school
BreatheInThAir: like i just met you, but your heading off so soon
Sang the blues6: 5 days!
BreatheInThAir: yeah man
I met him two days ago. Wha???
Aug. 27th, 2005
07:02 pm - OH MY GOD
STANLEY YELNATS STOP DOING THAT TO NEO!!!
<----just found Constantine Chas/John slash.
So I'm taking a break from The Sims Uber Special Ultra Delux to do a quick post. It's taken over my life. :-D I'm also watching Old School, which is quite amusing.
So I have only a week until I'm in collech, playing the Sims there. Aha!
My puppy's sick, but she'll be okay.
Aug. 24th, 2005
11:06 am - CURSE YOU STACY!!!
I've decided that using an undead army of doom is cheating. And Gandalf should just...rule Gondor.
Get your war on, Merry.
Aug. 22nd, 2005
06:49 pm - why am i nervous?
Well, I'm going on a date now, weird, I'm so nervous though and I don't know why. I'm not one to go on these kind of dates.
Antoni and I are going to see "The 40 Year Old Virgin", I hear it's hysterical, so yay!
I can't shake this weird feeling I have in the pit of my stomach, it's not a bad feeling, just not a good one either.
Well...details when I get back, I guess. :-/
12:10 pm - w.t.f.
| You scored as Demon. Demon: Darkness is your sanctuary. Demons are many and are all different in appearence and rank. The most common are the ones that feed off of human souls. They love to make someone fall into their inner darkness. Blood, wrath, murder... You name it they love it. These beings don't care who you are, if they set their sights on you, let's just hope you know a good excorist. They kill any love within you and pull you toward their side. By any means possible. You wish for chaos and hate, you are the Demon.|
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